15 cadogan gardens，chelse，london s.w
19 october 1921
my dear kitty，
i was cross——very cross——when i wroteyesterday.i tried hard all day to forget you，but itwouldn't work out.i gave up the attempt and ipunished myself for not being nice to you——andthere you are.you have it all now.that being so.i hope you won't feel it necessary to write anymore severe letters.
got your monday letter last nightwhen i called to my sister's place.didn't get ontoo well with her either.trouble everywhere.myown fault.one thing in your letters is truly fine.it does seem ages since i saw you！and it doesseem a long way——to our next conversation imean.these conversations are fine，and they arestraight，and that's that.
hope you enjoyed that drive.last night iescaped from all my people and went for a drivealone.rather funny——the great m.c. in lonely splendor.i am lonely actually and i suppose youwon't believe that，and that's that.
sorry that some of my letters should fallshort.read those ones again.they are not meantto fall really short.but life has to take in theserious things as well as the light things，and eventhough we may like sunshine always，it is notpractically nor indeed——and remember this——isit desirable.and that's that.
and i am very cross with myself this morning，and i am very apologetic to you and i ought to be，and not for yesterday's letter merelybut a lot more，and without you i would neverhave thought of the candles and i know i owe youany amount，and i know that you have been of immense help to me and i was overjoyed last nightwhen my sister asked when were p and h returning from paris，and couldn't we have dinnerwith them and perhaps k could be there also.iwonder if k would，and i wonder what my k thinks of this letter.it's very unlike me，isn't it？and i won't change it.and this is finished.
and love and blessings.